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#oneLife2Live

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I’ve lost both of my parents. I’m 37 and I live in an empty nest. Most nights I dine with my thoughts, cuddled up and comfy with solitude. Silence keeps me warm. Regret keeps me busy.

Some people don’t really understand the significance of time. More than money or any other materialistic thing, its what I wish I had more of.

We take advantage of the notion of tomorrow, not really accepting the fact that it might not show up. We spend so much of our moments chasing fantasies and worrying about the things we can’t control.

By focusing on who I’d disappoint, I sacrificed my own happiness, spending many years of my life living for other people. Who I was, was lost. My vision was unclear. I sit in silence thinking of how many opportunities I was gifted to experience life, wishing I could go back in time. To the moment when…

All she wanted to do was love me.

We learn our ABCs; we don’t learn how to be happy. Boy and Girls today’s lesson: How to people please. We are raised to be drones, programmed to live for our family, religion and society. We live in a space where people seldom ask, “Are you truly happy?”

My advice to you:

Don’t wait until it’s too late
Cherish those you love
Treasure those who love you
Live your life for you
Do what you love
Be who you want to be
NOW is all we have

Until we meet again,
Tiffany Michellé 💋

Books available at http://TiffanyMichel-le.com

 
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Posted by on December 6, 2015 in Dating, Life, Love

 

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Free 2 #loveme

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I used to be the kind of person that would never ask for help nor accept help when it was offered. One year, I contracted this super duper intergalactic flu. I couldn’t do anything for myself. I had to suck my ego up and allow others to do things and buy things for me. Even accepting smallest financial tokens was hard for me. See, I’ve always prided myself on being so independent. I had never been so sick in my life but that isn’t what broke me.

While laying in bed, a silent and calm voice spoke to me. It asked one thing and that one thing changed me.

“Would you rather not have them?”

What? What do you mean? I sat there for a moment and then it dawned on me. What if the Universe assumed I didn’t need the people who were dear to me because I didn’t allow them to be there for me? What if they were taken away from me, from my life?

I began to cry. How had I made them feel by continuing to say no to their love? What if their most important need was the need to feel needed? What had I done? What was I doing?

From that day on, my mind changed as well as my heart. That day, I allowed love to love me back.

Idk who needed to hear this but I tend to be very obedient to the voice in my head and when it tells me to write, I do. So here ya go love bucket. From me to you…because we both deserve to be loved. 😉

Until next time,
Tiffany Michellé ✌

 
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Posted by on October 13, 2015 in Life, Love

 

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“Say what you want, hoe you’re grown…”

as humans we’ve been unconsciously reared to be people pleasers. Others will tell you to listen to their entity of choice but what most of them are saying is, “do what will please others so they won’t judge you or me because I know you.” So when we’re contemplating a decision, we automatically take account of how our choices will affect the people in our life and we worry about how they’ll see us. We normally choose what other people want for us and not what we desire. Not many of us were raised to do what makes us happy.

When we receive advice from people, we can’t really trust it because there’s sometimes an unconscious internal motive. You think people want the best for you but how can they really if they’re always telling you to read a book you didn’t write or to listen to an entity that most of them don’t really understand. They are people pleasers themselves so how or why should we trust their opinions when it comes to what’s best for us.

So my point? In the words of a poor righteous teacher, Devin the dude

“Do what the fuck you wanna do.” No one has to live for you and contrary to popular belief, you didn’t manifest yourself in this time space reality to please other people prior to pleasing yourself. Love is much better than and less selfish than what we’ve been shown and given. Love doesn’t leave or judge you because you’re being yourself. Love doesn’t want you to do what you’ve been told instead of living in your truest nature and desires. Love doesn’t worry about how your actions or your lifestyle will make it, your friends or your families look. Love only wants you to be exceedingly happy.

Until next time my sweet little suga pops!
Tiffany Michellé
http://tiffanymichel-le.com

 
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Posted by on April 18, 2015 in Life, Love

 

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#bisexual beauty

As a child I was raised in the “chuuuurrrcchhh” and I endured hearing people that I knew, some I didn’t, tell me how God didn’t make people like me. I heard that I was flawed; a sinner and eventually I’d burn in hell for all eternity because this pretty little brown eyed girl chose to be gay.

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        Realistically, I was born this way.

In my teenage years, I looked but didn’t touch. In my early 20s I developed stomach issues due to the fact that I yearned for women so much but would choose not to act on my desires and curiosities. I liked men, I loved women, and I wanted them both but very differently.

I didn’t make it out of my 20s before I began quenching my feline thirst. Even so, I wasn’t’ entirely comfy in my skin. The things I heard when I was young would play over and over in my head. I felt doomed although I was just being myself. When I was in relationships with men, I’d yearn for a woman. I’d think about women in the moments of self-pleasure and every so often otherwise. I didn’t feel like I was doing anything wrong but I was still tormented.

Then something happened. And I believe that something was me saying, “Fuck it.” I began studying different spiritualties and I learned that there was a bigger picture than the one I grew up with. The world and God were much different than I had been taught. I began to accept the fact that I was different.

Truthfully, I’m still trying to comprehend it myself and honestly it’s a little hard for me to explain. In the past I’d feel like my skin was crawling if I was with a woman and dressed feminine. I’d feel out of place. I didn’t feel that way when with a man. It wasn’t until I was around 33 that I felt a little more comfortable dressing feminine while out with a woman. My closet used to look like a woman and a man had clothes in it but it was all just for me. The duality within me never felt stable.

I don’t date women and men at the same time. It’s too weird for me. I have to choose. I can’t do both. It feels like I have multiple personalities because I’m so different and I still haven’t figured out why. I’ve never cheated on a woman. I’ve cheated on almost every man I’ve been with. Who knows why?

My maternal family is very accepting and they’ve always been. Well my older brothers get grossed out when I see a beautiful girl before he does and I reply “Yeah I saw her already,” when he makes her existence known. For some reason he can say all kinds of stuff to me but he’s not comfortable with the vice versa. I get it though. I’m his little sister. He is in no way judgmental but it’s just different for him because it’s me. My guy cousins and my uncle say shit that grosses me out. They are way too comfortable. It’s like they’re happy I date women because they think I will find women for them. Lol, that’s not happening. My paternal family has disowned me. Not only have they distanced themselves from me but my daughter as well. Sigh.

For a long time, I didn’t like the term bisexual. I just didn’t think that I fit me. Besides, I don’t really like labels and my personality doesn’t fit into a little box no matter how pretty that box is decorated. I feel like the term “bisexual” is too generic for me. I prefer something like a Straight Lesbian.

Bi Myths:

· Bisexual  people are just greedy

· Bisexual people are not gay they are just confused… This is the most hurtful one.

· Bisexual people have it easy

· It’s just a phase

All of these make me shake my head because I don’t know about other people but being like this hasn’t been and isn’t easy. I can’t explain to you why I’m this way. I used to want to rip it out of me somehow because it was too complicated. I’ve lost my family. I miss them. They don’t understand so I guess they fear being around me. I used to hear my grandmother say, if you’re gay or Muslim I don’t want to have anything to do with you. I wouldn’t say anything. I was no longer a Christian but she didn’t know it. I was half gay and at that time she wasn’t aware of that either. To this day, I don’t know who told her or how she found out but I can tell you when because I haven’t heard from her or my father’s family since.

So now I’m 36 and I feel myself shifting. I look at men but soon after I become nauseated. This began about a month ago. I haven’t had good experiences with men but I don’t believe those experiences are causing this shift because I know there are good men in the world. I’m still attracted but that’s as far as it goes.

I won’t fight it, instead I embrace it. I welcome change.

Women? Now, THEY are a different story. My Taurus nostrils flare, my legs squeeze together and my right eye brow rises. I love women. I really don’t see how a person could not adore women. A woman is the most beautiful, shapely, unique being, the heavens have ever made. A woman’s curves, her lips, her moans, her smell, the way she can handle her own, overcome trials and tribulations in 6 inch stilettos with a baby bag and a briefcase at the same damn time continues to intrigue and entice me.

So this is my moment in transparency.

My time in triumph.

Through my experiences, others are gifted bravery 

and the rest my sweet little buttery nutts,

is HerSt♥ry!

 

Until next time,

Tiffany Michellé
Tiffanymichel-le.com

 
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Posted by on April 15, 2015 in Dating, Life, Love

 

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Rhetorically Speaking

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~ Why do we allow unfavorable events in our lives to deter us and push us away from the very people we’ve asked The Creator to bless us with. Why do you hide in the corners of our minds, sulking in our egos instead of reaching out or graciously accepting help when it’s offered. We say we don’t want to be alone and deep down we know we aren’t the only souls who experience hard times but we alienate ourselves in this illusion, this false depiction of sad loneliness. Does part of us feel as if we don’t deserve the love we’ve requested within the depths our hearts. Why must we coward at the thought of seeming vulnerable. Shouldn’t the courage displayed in choosing to be vulnerable be praised. Are we not enough to allow ourselves simply to be…human?

Until next time my sweets,
Tiffany Michellé 💋
(Pronounced Michel-lay)
tiffanymichel-le.com

 
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Posted by on March 10, 2015 in Life

 

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Silent Whispers ❤

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You never know what someone is going through. Not everyone wears their heart on their sleeve and not everyone feels comfortable self disclosing without being prompted. So when your spirit whispers to you to ask if someone’s ok, push your ego to the side and put love first. You never know, you listening might save a moment or even a life.

Until next time my sweets,
Tiffany Michellé
TiffanyMichel-le.com

 
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Posted by on March 4, 2015 in Dating, Life, Love

 

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On the outside looking in…

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During life we experience so much with other individuals. Some of those times feel good and some of them don’t. Often when they don’t feel favorable we point our emotional and mental attention outward at the person instead of inward to ourselves. In doing so we miss the opportunity to learn the lesson planted in the experience and therefore the chance to grow into a better us.

Love & Light,
Tiffany Michellè

 
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Posted by on August 4, 2014 in Dating, Life, Love

 

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